HAI! ANNYEONG! KONNICHIWA! OHHH every greeting words in every languange, i will say it right now. How are you my blog readerssssssssssssssssssssssssss (like i have one)

zomg. i don't update this blog. I'm mean. sowryyy. I'm busy in tumblr! :D it's so fun and interestingggggg. so i've not updated this blog for...3-4 months? oops. mianhae! gomenasai!

so my life.. had gone through ups and downs, lately i'm on downs but SHINee helped me (believe it or not, SHINee is still in my mind especialy their lead dancer).

yeahh, ups and downs. Phoenix got 9th place of 40 participants for regionals, went to Anyer with friends for holiday, got someone to be attached to, fell to deep, tricked, heart-broken, hating, wishing someone to die, deleting someone from my life, buying SHINee's merchandises, new class, hard times of 12th grade ( i'm not kidding. 12th grade is killer), ahh many memories. But my state actually is going down~ *sigh*

SHINee, K-Pop and musics are my runaways.

my life is too...messed up to tell you guys :) yah i hope you have a good life. ciaossu.

i just simply don't know what had happened.

jealous for something that well, for someone, that don't even know who i am?

i know that fact. but still it hurts more than anything. really really more than anything.

people talking about his ideal type. which is not me for sure. i know, i know. but it hurts.


this life is harder than it should be now, reality hurts.


i'm not the delusional one, but still. i'm happy if he's happy, but just, well this small heart of mine feel hurt, that's all :)

why am i like this?


maybe because i had fell too deep?

mendadak.



kangen waktu dateng telat tiap hari, ampe udh pada hapal

kangen nyasar waktu nyari kelas pertama kali

kangen hari2 mendung

kangen teritori pojokan dimana isinya pasti gue, Jennifer, Anne, Astri, Judith. saking
nggak bs dipisah akhirnya setiap kimia pasti dipisah sm bu Odil.

kangen waktu ngomongin Eyeshield 21 gila-gilaan

kangen waktu abis olahraga, pasti satu kelas ngumpul di bawah kipas angin dan becanda2
plus ngobrol2

kangen masa2 menderita gara2 pressure

kangen ngomongin Bleach!! ampe heboh di twitter sendiri

kangen ngatain yg jadian *single rese*

kangen nontonin cowo2 main hamburger, atau lempar tutup botol, dan segala game
geblek lainnya yg ada ada aja diciptain

kangen seisi kelasnya yg konyol, dramaqueen/dramaking, nyolotnya sama

kangen kelas yg kalo pelajaran Jepang pasti terbagi dua kubu : kubu aktif dan pasif T-T

kangen lawakannya bu kristal. *lho*

kangen moving class.

kangen jd anak jahat




paling pol,


adalah kangen suasana pewenya yang nggak pernah bs digantiin. kangen banget bangetan
suasana waktu pagi-pagi, kalo lg mendung ampe langit jd gelap. bener2 pewe. kangen banget-bangetan
sm orang2nya yang bisa diajak kerjasama. kangen jg sama kebersamaannya. kangen
sama semua yang ada di waktu-waktu itu.

kangen sm divisi 2 sepenuhnya :'(


kangen Juni 2009-Juni 2010


mau balik. plis.

again, it have been weeks since the last time i posted something here. i'm kinda miss this blog tho. but idk what should i write, soo -_- that's the main reason why i'm lacking at posting.

i just amazed with my Top 25 Most Played in my iTunes. I mean, the numbers are pretty amazing O_O it reached 600+ LOL. let me show you the list.

1. Rihanna's Only Girl In The World - 671 plays
I DONT KNOW that left my iTunes kept playing in mute for hours when I playing The Sims 2 could give this effect. yeah. it's ridiculous actually because the reason of the big number is : my brother left it keep playing in repeat when we played Sims 2 for hours, until dawn. ah-ha-ha.

2. Linkin Park's Faint - 501 plays
okay this one, i really listened until it reach 500+. i mean, the song is really cool and wow-ing, also i got my own imagination about this song. but this song is really goooood, the best of Linkin Park for me.

3. Onelifecrew's Tsuioku Merry-Go-Round - 376 plays
ohoho this song is the theme song of my days when I'm addicted to Fairy Tail. Gray-sama~ :3 but the song is really calming and nicee. you really should listen this song. sooo relaxing.

4. David Guetta ft. Rihanna's Who's That Chick -343 plays
eh this song is addicting -_-

5. Far East Movement ft. Ryan Tedder's Rocketeer - 309 plays
ahahaha this song is very addicting. too good, too cool, too...ah everything. first time i heard it, i'm in love with this song in instant. what a perfect job, FEM & Ryan!

6. SHINee's Ring Ding Dong - 309 plays
oh. like you need to questioning about this song again. this is SHINee's first song that made me attached to them, because it's so good and energybooster-ing *what kind of word is this*. my friends also knew SHINee because of Ring Ding Dong and they often sang it too -_-

7. SuG's Rockin Playing Game - 282 plays
Song from my days when i'm addicted to Fairy Tail also. this song is cool thoo

8. SHINee's Lucifer - 278 plays
ahaha this song is addicting also. and i often listening to it for the dance practice, fuuh finally i can dance the whole song now. their voices here are so amaziiing~

9. Dev's Bass Down Low - 273 plays
oh this song is addicting. for playing in Tap Tap or just listening or just dancing -_- Phoenix's spirit burner.

10. Shiho Nanba's Gomen Ne Watashi - 248 plays
this song is so calming. the orchestra is, wow. i loveee it.

okay i'm sleepy now and i don't think i'll continued the post until it reach 25th -_- i'll only post the top 10. btw, the Kpop songs in that list are 12 songs : SHINee's RDD, Lucifer, Hello, A.MI.GO, JoJo, Love Still Goes On, Romeo+Juliette ; SNSD's OH! ; MBLAQ's Stay ; B2ST's Shock and Breath ; and Super Junior's BONAMANA and Sorry Sorry. The rest are Like A G6, Please Don't Go, Thank You!!, and Misery.

SHINee did dominated the list -__- sorry, I'm a Shawol myself.

going to bed, see you someday! annyeong!

#np GD&TOP - Baby Good Night

1. in a bad mood, thanks to the kitchen range, my brother, my wounds, my internet connection, my society, etc.

2. pressure overflowing

3. craving for ANY chocolate bars esp. snickers mars and cadbury. also chocolate and banana milk. also Yupi Baby Bears and Neon Worms. Also Pocky. Also Pringles.

4. irritated easily today, idk why.

5. too many people breaking my mood and don't understand what i'm feeling today.

6. even Taemin's massive photo spams in Tumblr don't cheered me up until i reached my happy-mood meter.



..

can i just moved to Seoul and started a new, wealthy life, perfectly like i want it to be?

i've got my holiday agaiin~ woohoo! it starts tomorrow until, well i forgot but it's around one week or more. gosh so happy!

i got some songs stuck inside my brain lately, dominated by K-pop as usual. They are MBLAQ'S Again, MBLAQ'S Cry, Flight Facilities's Crave You, & Katy Perry's E.T.

uoh it's pretty tiring you know, suddenly remembered the lyrics of those songs and can't help to sing it, and the tones and lyrics just stucked inside your brain -_- now i can't stop listening to Cry and E.T. , Cry is just too goood and calming! The lyric is not calming actually, but the rhythym and tones did!

and I'm really surprised when I watched today's MTV OK Karaoke. -_-

me : *switch the channel to MTV while eating*
TV : "Nareul mukko gadoon.damyeon sarangdo mukkin chae, miraedo mukkin chae~"
me : *turn my head in instant, and saw 5 boys I loved the most in this world was dancing in TV* OH!!!!!!!

really, i did scream when I heard that lines of SHINee's Lucifer, xixixi. It's an automatic reactions. My mom even surprised when I screamed suddenly and ran to the tv and sit in front of it, eyes glued.

and right after Lucifer finished, Super Junior's Sorry Sorry followed. ha.

gosh i'm too sleepy. see you tomorrow, if i remember. cao!

yo. boredom attacked me so here i am.

school had turned into hell, lately. i miss my holidays :( when i can playing on Tumblr until dawn and sleep whenever i want and wake up whenever i want, when i can listen to my favourite musics and playlists as long as i want without worrying about my other schedules, etc.

and i miss SHINee a lot :( i knew that they were preparing their debut in Japan for May 2011 and some rumours said that they were doing their new album (honestly when i read the rumour i'm really happy). But i miss watching them performing live in TV :( last time I saw SHINee new thingy is in Oh! My School episode 15 when Onew appeared.

Oh, btw, Oh! My School is just damn HILARIOUS. i watched the 15th episode around 22.30 p.m, and i laughed so HARD. i don't care how late it was. that episode is just damn FUNNY! especially Onew with his fabulous ttakbam skill, lol. and when he played the game where he need to sing an english-lyric song into a korean-lyric song. When he made a mistake and get a very strong wind and he UNEXPECTEDLY thrown from his chair because of the wind! of course he was exaggerating but it's just damn funny and i can't stop laughing -_- and he done it twice. and also in a episode (i forgot which episode) when one of the guest star is Lee Joon, and he was ordered to asked a girl to buy her a food. And what he did is just GLARE with his unlimited charisma and sharp eyes. OH GOD if i was the girl i will be very happy and screamed then fainted or just being numb and don't know what to do or got a heart attack .oh guys, you should watch this show at KBS World. really cheering up your day.

yeah, just wished me a better life for the next days. see ya~